Humility and Total Freedom for Self-Realization

Dublin, California + Zoom · July 25, 2026 · 2:04:41

03:01 — Namaste & Welcome — Jai Shankar

3:01 Namaste. Namaste Jai Shankar. Welcome to satsang. Thank you for all of you for being here. To all the zoomers who are present here today taking the time off for your own evolving if that's what you want. I'm assuming because you're all here.

03:30 — Today's Title — Humility and Total Freedom for Self-Realization

3:30 woke me up. So, usually don't give the titles, Krishna does it but today the title Humility and Total Freedom for Self-Realization. Total humility and total surrender for self-realization.

4:00 So we have spoken about humility and the prerequisites. I haven't gone through too much with this group but I told you to catch up on the YouTube videos.

04:16 — Sharanagati Has to Be Total

4:16 And Sharanagati or Saranda, can you hear me? Sharanagati or Saranda has to be total.

4:30 about the combination of these two aspects which is humility first because when you're humble the more you delve into this deeper dimensions of yourself which is the supreme reality recognizing the supreme reality is you only such the ananda and then we are doing it with humility then what happens this absolute

05:01 — The Benefits of Humility & Total Surrender

5:01 So with this being has experienced this for many many years because when it came to that state of being the benefits of humility and total surrender is very expansive and very deep.

5:30 come to that levels of consciousness go deeper in other words keep yourself open to higher dimensions within yourself not say I'm all done I'm enlightened and so you know and yeah you'll experience the sense of total freedom peace joy tranquility serenity everything but when you're open to it there's more coming about that is because of the Sharanagati, because of the total surrender. At every moment you are in total surrender means you have no idea what's coming through for you. So basically instead of us being in this little box of self-will, because you know that you believe the mind and the intellect and you are conducting and all of these wonderful things happen and then you're very happy and everything.

06:35 — The Bhajan to Come — Searching, Then Finding Shiva Within

6:35 And there's a beautiful bhajan we're going to play afterwards, which says, I wanted all of these desires to be fulfilled. And I'm going into this world with full, you know, energy. And I'm fulfilling quite a few of my desires. And after a while, I'm just tired.

7:00 I just felt tired and I came home and I simply sat and I was in silence. And then I suddenly realized that Shiva, that energy which I've been searching, is within me. And there is this splendid silence and tranquility takes over my life. And then there's only Shiva. Shiva means consciousness, the universal consciousness

7:31 So when we step out of our own concepts and perspectives and you know, tiny little, see the self is only very little, the little self is very little with its positionalities, with its name and form and everything. But once you step out of it and say, okay, when you're stepping out of it, you don't really know what's going to happen.

8:00 It went to a deeper level because of my dad and everything. As you all know, my father passed away just after I left, when I was there for 19 days with him. So when you're stepping out of your self-will, what happens is the higher consciousness within yourself takes over your life and conducts it the best for you, the highest and best for you, which we do not know.

8:30 great and just fantastic and this great guru or I'm this great philosopher or I'm great this great surgeon but beyond all of it you know what death really makes you recognize is that everything you're doing and achieving in this life cannot be taken with you cannot be taken with you the only thing you can take your tranquility and your understanding of life and full that you are the Satchitananda. You are not this little insignificant being with some of your own ideas. You get my point? So to go to... so when you say you are like in this

9:30 That's okay, that's very good, but how do you go deeper? So when you continue to be in that surrender, complete, total surrender, suppose you are in total surrender and something the mind comes and says, you know, Gracie, you can do a little bit this and that, and suppose you decide to surrender something completely,

10:00 dropped and this needs to be picked up here and now and you'll get up and do it.

10:06 — Deeper Levels of Sharanagati With Humility

10:06 Make sense? So when you're going into the deeper levels of Sharanagati with humility and what say I'm assuming that some of you have experienced that deep

10:30 in Sharanagati, total surrender. See in the beginning when you are in the beginning stages when you are saying yes you're listening to Mahan saying okay I'm in Sharanagati, I'm very humble and sometimes you may think I'm not very humble, you know, humility is not my cup of tea,

11:00 It's a big deal in humility. So what you do is you simply surrender to that infinity within you and say, you know, I can't deal with this humility. I really don't know what you're talking about. But I'm going to just surrender that as well. And as soon as you do that, you are in this simply...

11:19 If this surrender is sincere and loving and absolute, you know, you're absolutely doing it, then comes humility like that. All of a sudden you are looking and saying, Oh my God! It feels so humble. Why am I so humble?

11:37 Do I need to be that humble? Because the mind will question you. All these things. Then magic happens when that two combinations are there in your life. What I realize, I'll give you a small analogy, when I was in India.

12:00 enjoying the benefits of this. Literally it's very difficult for me to talk even. I've been enjoying the benefits of this combination for many years but I'm here to tell you that you can even go deeper and when that depth is realized, that

12:30 beyond the understanding of the intellect.

12:34 — Intelligence of the Heart, Not Intellect of the Mind

12:34 Here now we are going into intelligence of the heart, not the intellect of the mind. See what I am saying?

12:47 So when you go to the intelligence of the heart, it is beyond comprehension, beyond our little understanding of the Self.

13:04 So in that expansive state all kinds of things happen. When you get up in the morning you are planning your day or something like that and suddenly something else happens in your life entirely different from what you planned. So do you have the courage to go that route? You are a great planner, you have done everything beautifully for today.

13:33 meditation shifts gears and you're not going to do this silly thing you've been doing for 50 years. You change something within you says you know just go here as in okay you want me to just go and walk in the park and you're telling me not to take the nice glossy you know paved way and you want me to walk in that thing you know yeah it's just an analogy but you know in life life will You say, okay, what's this going to happen? Okay.

14:03 And you walk and then you see the magic. I'm just giving you riddles, right? You're wondering what's Ma going to say now? It's a very intimate sharing. So first of all, I didn't want to do personal, but then 4 o'clock the downloads came. You've got to speak about this.

14:24 Okay, okay, okay, okay. and I shared with Barbara.

14:32 — Intimate Sharing — The Download to Go to India

14:32 So I was just sitting there in meditation because I'd seen my dad in February and just came back. And then I said, okay, I've said bye to him and everything. I was very happy. And I said, it's okay, whenever he passes, I'll try to make it. That was my take on it.

14:51 You know, that was the little self. And then I was sitting in meditation and something told me, let go now because I heard he was transitioning. and it was like simply an orchestration. Get up, book your tickets, go.

15:05 And I'm going, whoa, wait a minute, where did that come from? So when I told Barbara, she said it was like she fell off the rock and she was like, you know, when she read that thing from me, she fell off the rock and she was like, this was like, what did you say? This was like...

15:19 My face fell in the soup. No, not only that, she said it was earthquake. city so i mean this is like randomly i'm telling somebody in the group you know and then this after i came back from india like this was just a couple of weeks ago a week ago something so what happens is at that time there was no questioning of do i have the funds i mean why should i go i did blah blah you know there's nothing there in total sharanagati why i'm saying total sharanagati is

16:00 — Total Freedom Requires Total Sharanagati

16:00 the benefits of this, total freedom, it has to be total Sharanagati. So left everything, didn't question anything, booked my ticket and saying, oh my goodness, three times the normal economy ticket, you know, okay. So anyway, I go there and it was like my sister-in-law was praying that he wouldn't leave before I arrived, it was that bad, but he lasted for 19

16:30 unbelievable, you know. I was there with him and he was just like so happy. Once he recognized I had come, you know, he was just like, he didn't want to leave. He said, you and me, I've got the money. Let's go to United States. He showed the plane. I said, dad, you still have those desires? So, I said, let's go. Just take me out of here, like, you know, all this stuff. He even like a month ago.

17:01 So you can't keep him in bed. So he's telling me like, you know, my mind is really excellent. But his body, you have to do something about it, you know, like that.

17:10 So every single day, just working with him, being with him at like 24-7, you know, a couple of hours, I would just go up to my home, to my ashram and turn the AC on and sit there because it's freaking hot, you know.

17:24 But what I'm saying, why I'm giving you is like, this is the analogy of this total freedom. So every time you take, when you delve into the total Sharinagati, you have to take one moment at a time, one day at a time. When you do that, you will see this beautiful orchestration happening in your life.

17:45 Initially, you know, Ma said all of this and where's the beauty in my life? You know, you'll be thinking, but be patient. Because what is Sharinagati? It's not that you have this expectation, right?

18:00 and having a desire and making it happen and all that. Everything has to be given up. It's like a very...

18:19 So it's a very... it sounds very simple but it's not that easy to achieve. But if you achieve it, Something within you is leading you every moment. And there were a lot of challenges too, you know, with environment and whatever. I don't want to say specifics, but you keep going one day at a time, you know.

18:46 And, you know, I would just be freshly, have a bath and everything. I still remember, you know, I would bend over him and he noticed everything. You know, my mala would come down like that and he would notice my mala. and then he would give me a big smile you know and then it was funny like it was my birthday on July 8th so my sister-in-law said I have you have to go buy a gift like I have to give you something you have to wear something I said please for god's sake and I'm not going shopping right now so anyway and she forced she says no no your brother is going to take you and you have to go and I'm saying oh my god so I went to tell my dad you know I'm going out for a little shopping

19:30 Remember Dad's birthday? When he said? I said eighth. So he said eighth, very good number. And you know what he told me? We started going to philosophy and I told, I was sharing with some of the people, he knew four languages, but he was only talking the local language which is Tamil.

19:48 In Tamil he was telling, you know, you don't need money, you don't need land, you don't need anything, you only need a good heart. Then he says, he tells me all this philosophy. Then he says, if you want to buy land, number eight. If you want to buy a house, number eight.

20:08 I'm saying that. It's literally funny. I'm looking at it. Then anyway, I went shopping and came and bought something. And then the next day I went to him and he said, your birthday already?

20:20 I said, no, one more day tomorrow. And he says, okay. You know, it's like, I don't know why I'm sharing this with you. It's so funny. Then he says, okay. Whenever he shows the Godridge Bureau, there's no money in there.

20:32 Money is in the bank. But he says, that means, he's saying, take my money. He says, take my money and buy something nice. And he's saying, you take whatever you want, okay? And he says, okay, Daddy. He says, don't say, Daddy, I don't want.

20:44 He's telling me like this, you know. Don't say, I don't want, I don't want. I said, oh my God, you're getting so funny. Things like that, you know. Every moment I was with him, see, the important thing I want to tell you,

20:56 — The Sakshi — Witness and Master of Yourself

20:56 there's the sakshi. Sakshi means witness. supreme awareness witness and this personality your manifestation called Sharada or you know Gracie or whoever is conducting your life from this Sakshi that means at every moment whatever you're conducting your witnessing also and in that witnessing with awareness you simply drop some useless silly thing

21:30 but that sakshi is simply witnessing this beautiful thing that's happening and in my case so then then you become the master you're not you're not a slave to the ego mind telling you what to do see what I'm saying does it make sense then you become the witness and as well as the master of yourself and then everything that is conducted in your life is for your highest and best and bring you to total peace, freedom, serenity, love, everything, unconditional love, compassion to everybody who comes into your life.

22:10 For whatever reason, you don't know, you're just simply doing it. And the feedback of it is immense. That's what I'm humbly trying to tell you. So all this was happening.

22:23 — Deeper Into 100% Sharanagati — With My Father

22:23 What I'm saying is when you are going into the deeper levels of 100% Sharanagati, What happens is just analogies that I'm giving you. So all of a sudden I got in touch with one of my old teachers who taught me everything. I do not use now.

22:40 Quantum healing, quantum everything, you know. So he suddenly got in touch with me and I was helping a couple of things. He says, oh, I can do this healing, you know. And my father, so twelfth night I left at nine o'clock. Nine p.m. at that time he was pretty not aware.

23:00 he will not let me go. He already told me, you're not going anywhere. You're going to stay here with me. And so he was completely, eyes were shut. And so I kissed him goodbye and everything, took his pranams and I left. I was in the airport at 3 a.m. I got a call and I told my brother, please tell me as soon as he, because I knew, you know, it was not going to make it. So he told me that dad is gone. So probably he went around 2.40 a.m.

23:30 after I left. So then I was in touch with this master, one of my teachers, and he said, I told him immediately that father has passed. So he said, no, I'm going to do this prayer for him when the soul, see, we are in the lower planes, and if you want the soul to go to higher planes, you do a prayer. He said, I'll do that because you're traveling.

23:53 So he's taught me all this, okay, and haven't done it for 15 years. I'm saying, okay, he's Right. So after I reached and he said, Amma, don't worry, I'll take care of all the 11 days you're supposed to do. Because we believe that the soul stays for 11 days on earth. It's like earth bound, wondering what's happening and all that.

24:14 And that's where we have all these traditional prayers we do for 11 days, offering everything that he likes for 11 days. And then we finally send him to Vaikuntha, you know, the heavenly abode after doing all of this priestly worships and everything. this point is that so he said I'll take care of it don't worry about it and initially he said you can feed 108 poor people poor feeding if you do 108 it's very good for the soul I said sure no problem then he comes and says your father lived like a king so how about thousand and eight I'm saying thousand and eight okay now how much is that going to be you know and so he told me sometimes what presents in your life is an impossibility.

25:04 But you are in Sharanagati. Hello, you know, 100% Sharanagati. So you say, Okay, Guruji, okay. Okay, okay.

25:14 So I said, okay. And I somehow came up. He said, you can give it to me later, but a certain time, because 11th day we have to pour feet.

25:22 So I said, okay. So I was sitting there and figuring out all this. Anyway, the bottom line is because this one said, just going to do it. It's my dad, it's a one-time thing, you know, like if I'm out of something, whatever, it'll come to me, you know. So we did it. And can you believe the miracle?

25:41 I'm coming to the point is that, so she said we can feed a thousand and eight people.

25:48 — The Expansion — 1,008 Became 4,000 Fed

25:48 Finally, four thousand people were fed. For that amount I had sent, four thousand people. is this is the expansion that happens in the space of complete Sharanagati. You see, I'm just giving a simple analogy. That's how this life has been. I don't know where it, when it happens. Okay. Because you have to come to that absolute comfort zone where you say, okay, you know what I mean?

26:30 and oh I'm just doing these things for all my life and I have to give this up and oh blah blah blah and I have to go to this retreat she's asking me to come you know that is what it takes to come to total freedom I'm not saying sit with this one but that's what it takes folks you know so are you are you prepared can you come to that I mean are you understanding what is being said can you

27:01 surrender and with humility.

27:14 So then whatever happens to the body, whatever happens to the situation, whatever is happening in the world does not matter. Finally one day when you check out what is that you have gained? a few dollars, million dollars. You have a million dollars, okay. How happy are you? Are you supremely happy? Are you supremely happy that the million dollars also is taken away, is robbed? Are you that unshakable reality? That's what I'm talking about. You have to come to that state where that unshakable reality, no matter what happened, what is happening around

28:11 Is that doable?

28:30 it's only the Shiva consciousness that exists within you that takes you home and beyond.

28:40 — Ramana — Realization Amidst the Turmoil of Life

28:40 Nothing else in this world. See what happens is also, I'll read one of Ramana's quotes in a minute, what he says, while all of this turmoil is going on also, you have to be doing your realization.

29:00 I'm not saying don't enjoy the world, don't enjoy the strawberries.

29:03 — The Peach Cobbler — Discrimination & the Sakshi

29:03 But somebody bought you a peach cobbler and saying, Oh, I'm in meditation and I'm in Sharanagati, should I eat the peach cobbler? It has come to your world, it has come into your life. Somebody has presented you with this. The Divine is gifting you with the peach cobbler, why don't you freaking eat it? It's like that.

29:22 So you have to have the discrimination to see what is the highest and best for you. created this beautiful life for you. But at the same time, parallelly, you have to be in the Sakshi, witnessing everything and saying, is this the highest and best for me? Makes sense. Is this the highest and best for me? The Sakshi witness is always there.

30:00 who that is not you know everything else in the world because the world will take you here one day and you know oh you're being used and you know after everything like i don't want to i didn't want to say anything you know not that's not positive but in my heart i felt okay i served my dad and just like perfection that god took me there and everything and i just left i didn't know complained oh you know like she could have turned she could have changed her you know her ticket even in the airport and she didn't wait to send him off I have sent him off you know what I mean so what I'm trying to tell you this is because the world will come and start punching so at that time I was going to say oh my god you know like what are they all going to think of me because a lot of visitors came to see my dad so there I saw I met them all of them and they're all just hugging some of them for 30-40 years.

31:02 Then they went home and they said, oh, you're not going to stay? Even to me they said, and then later on they complained to my family, oh, how can she leave? So that's what I'm trying to tell you in analogy that the world is going to be like that.

31:16 Your own family, your own whatever. Environment is going to come at you. When it comes at you, who are you? You're falling apart? Am I going to sit in plain and cry? I didn't even have a tear a spider is no tear because you it's only a joy death is joy you know you're leaving this physical painful you know reality and going into the infinite reality so anyway so this is all this energy I gave you to get a picture of because you're moving from this dimension of absolute

32:00 and you know everything to complete serenity and tranquility and stability because you are only completely in sharanagati in surrender with the universal consciousness within yourself the satchitananda within yourself then why do you need the world in other words you are interacting with the world

32:22 — The World Is You — Knowing When to Disconnect

32:22 because the world is also you Ramana says the world also is you only so you're is beautiful but you know when to disconnect, when to chop. Just like I said, you know, oh yeah they're all talking about me so what you know. See what I'm saying? So any questions?

32:48 Actually I didn't want to dilute it with some questions but please

33:00 Zoomers, please, you can send iChat or whatever.

33:09 — Ramana's Quote — Make Yourself Comfortable, Meditate

33:09 So this is Ramana's quote, which is similar to what we kind of explained. Realization must be amidst all the turmoils of life. If you make yourself comfortable, and go to bed, you fall asleep. So you have to make yourself comfortable.

33:27 In the night, when you make yourself comfortable, you fall asleep. no problems. When you're filled with all of these thoughts of anxiety, expectation, desires, then you're saying, oh well, all these desires did not get done today. I had this little expectation of this list to be fulfilled. I did not fulfill. So you're rolling, tossing, turning, right?

33:47 So, so he is, okay, phone. So then if you make yourself comfortable and go to bed, you fall But keep yourself steady in meditation. So all of these turmoils coming, we are going through life.

34:07 — Stay in Meditation, Sharanagati, Humility

34:07 I'm telling you like, you know, stay in meditation, stay in Sharanagati, humility, surrender and meditate, meditate, meditate. And then when you are interacting with the world, and the world may be in turmoil. Are you in turmoil? If you follow these tools, will you be in turmoil?

34:30 you be in turmoil? That's what I'm saying. See, otherwise there's no point in life simply by just striving, striving, striving, doing this, doing that, running here, running there. What for? When you come back and you simply sit and meditate and be in that silence for three minutes, magic happens. Because my family, you know, my older daughter from Boston, the whole Jingbang is here. So every day I'm between the family visiting and between some big event happening, back and forth, cooking, going back, back and forth.

35:06 So how is this being in total peace and calm?

35:17 You know, when Krishna asks me, I say, I'm here. You know.

35:30 God I'm going to do this you know simply you just are in the moment simply being the sakshi witnessing and if you need the help if you need a little bit of rest you will simply sit down that's one thing I want to tell you that any time when you're doing whatever God wants you to do or whatever but when you feel a little bit you know tired you simply sit and rest in those three minutes simply flooded with that incessant energy of God, you know, which is just beautiful and it energizes you at that moment. Then you are able to go through the whole year also. At that moment you'll have so much energy, you'll say, oh I can do this, you know. Oh tomorrow is satsang, oh wow. And yesterday night was my granddaughter's 14th birthday. They said, you cannot come. I said, okay, 14th birthday,

36:30 They never do on Fridays before satsang, you know. But how am I here today? What I'm trying to tell you is that even the normalcy of life, you have to simply embrace, if you have to embrace. The ones which you don't, any other thing, I just don't bother with it. So any other questions?

36:46 — Q&A — Any Questions? Joseph's Poem

36:46 Any questions based on this? Is this doable?

36:56 Joseph wrote you a nice poem. Okay. Yeah, yeah, sure. There's one sadhika who was with me for a long time and then he was gone somewhere. I mean, you guys do that to me, you know. You come one day and then you're gone the next day saying like, where is that bright soul? And I don't know. Somebody said like, make sure that Ma thinks of me. I'm here but I can't make it to satsang. Sometimes, you know,

37:30 personality because there's no personality. And there was this another question about, you know, this, because Krishna had to, you know, I hope you don't mind me, Krishna. He had to reply to a sadhaka who was like, you know, she was trying to say something to me and then I kind of say, okay, sure, bye-bye, you know. So anyway, he had to reply. So he was trying to explain. I said, just make it short, short, you know, short and sweet. And this is what my message is. So he you know, reply to her in a very sweet way.

38:03 He's very sweet, so he wants to write a sweet thing. Then he was telling me, and I was just waiting there very patiently because we got together that day. And he was replying, so I was waiting very patiently and patiently and patiently, and I still did not say how long it's going to take, okay?

38:19 But anyway, he was saying, like, no, Ma, I read about this,

38:22 — Gurus Can Do No Wrong — The True Guru

38:22 about the gurus can do no wrong, okay? Gurus can do no wrong, so I'm trying to be very, you know, understanding with this person. Excuse me, here is the thing for Krishna as well as all of you, is that a true guru who is actually conducting their life, which is total Sharanagati, who is conducting their life?

38:44 Who is conducting their life? Their personality? Their Sharadama conducting their life? No. So it is that when that guru speaks, it is. So gurus can do no wrong.

38:55 Yes, right, correct. We can do no wrong. You see what I am saying? it is the infinite flowing through you. If I say something, chop that person off, sorry I got chopped because Shiva wanted it, you know. The Shiva within you. So it's so that's the way it is.

39:13 Because something comes from this one, it is complete, coming from a space of Sharanagati at the same time, like unconditional love for everybody with compassion. So beyond that, if you want to go somewhere else, bye-bye, no problem.

39:30 Yes, question?

39:38 I had a comment that was brought up because mentioning sometimes you're mean. This really wasn't mean. But it was the first time that I was in TIRU and part of that sadaka team that helped. I wasn't really much help because after satsang I was always in a puddle. But anyway, at the very end, we had a retreat that was a silent retreat for two days.

40:09 And somehow I assumed I was going to be invited to this retreat, but I wasn't invited. I wasn't invited. And of course, it just sits heavy in your heart. But at the same time, I accepted it. Okay.

40:30 You know, she knows. She's feeling it in her heart. And there were certain people she wanted there and certain people she didn't want there. And so I kind of accepted that and that all would be well.

40:44 — Barbara's Lesson — Not Invited to the Retreat

40:47 I know some other people weren't invited to and they kind of were pleading with mom. Let me come, let me come. and it was such a good lesson. And then, of course, what happened? She decided to invite me.

41:08 But it was such a good lesson to sit with that. So, just not to interrupt, but she said it was a good lesson, so she learned the lesson. She recognized why I was not in, I don't know why, but she's made the decision.

41:24 The moment that Sharanagati happened, she was invited. That's where the magic happens. That's why the expansiveness. So yes, guru cannot be wrong. The true gurus, there are a lot of people who are not really cooked and they're teaching, which is okay, because they also are giving it to the people who are at levels of conscience.

41:47 They cannot come here and be here, because the vibration will burn. Arunachala burning.

42:00 that it wasn't you and your personality had nothing to do with liking me or not liking me, but that you feel Shambho in your heart, and Shambho tells you what. And that isn't the only time you said no to me. There was another time I asked for something, and it was no. But again, I didn't have to take it personally.

42:23 What a lesson that is. What a lesson. It's beautiful. Because of your humility. In the face of humility, if you accept that, then everything becomes, what a lesson. The recognition for you that, oh, what a lesson.

42:42 When you're humble, when you're not humble and you have the ego, you can say, oh, I don't need to be in this satsang. Who does she think she is? You know what I mean? And I can go to other satsangs, you know, like I don't need to be here.

42:54 And I'll say, I love you, darling. Bye-bye. for sharing. I appreciate that. So he's going to, Krishna

43:03 — Joseph's Poem — Leela's Play

43:03 is going to read a poem or what? What is that? It's a poem. Okay. Leela's play. Renunciation is no giving up. It is drinking from a deeper cup.

43:16 To yield the self is not to fade from view, but to join a play of colors, bright and new. Beyond the veil, Shardama takes her trail to enter in my dream without a fail.

43:30 She does not touch my sleep but guides my mind to free me from the chains of Maya's bind. The master enters her own dream to wake the sleeping souls for her own spirit's sake. And she awakens us, she also grows, and closer to the source of light she goes.

44:00 The ego sees a cold and lonely space, a separate world without a warm embrace. I am the dreamer and the dream, it's true, for she is my God and I am God too. This realization sets the spirit free to dive into the cosmic, boundless sea.

44:30 time, we leave the heavy sleep of Maya's night to dance in Leela's free and playful light. Beautiful, beautiful. Joseph, thank you so much. That's, you know, he was in the Q &A with Krishna the other day and he said, okay, I'm just, I'm just a baby, you guys. Like, I'm just a baby. I'm just a baby. You know, what do you guys, what do you guys do? Like, how do you do it? And look at Everything that we have said in satsangs, he has said it in a short beautiful poem.

45:05 Thank you so much, Joseph. Appreciate it. Hope you are listening from somewhere, zooming or something. He's on? Okay. You're on?

45:12 Thank you, Joseph. Thank you so much. So, you know, it's like he talks about the Maya, which is so important, right?

45:20 — Brahman Satyam, Jagat Mithya — The Maya of the World

45:20 Once, when you are in this Sakshi mode, you recognize the Maya of the world. Brahman satyam jagat mitya. Finished one sentence, you know. alone, their consciousness alone is the truth and the Jagat is just a Mithya illusory.

45:37 — Om Namah Shivaya — Shiva Is My Breath

45:37 So this bhajan we are going to play which I think I've played sometime before. It's a beautiful, well one of my favorites because I said a little bit earlier about how we go into the Jagat and then we come back to rest. Om Namah Shivaya. Shiva is my breath. Shiva is my Dhyan, means my meditation And there is only comfort. There is comfort when I am with Shiva. Om Namah Shivaya. I was running behind the world and I felt I was running away from myself. I was running away with the world and I felt I was running away from myself.

46:30 you are working, you are making money, whatever you are doing, but somehow deep within your heart you feel a little emptiness. When I sat quietly one day, the first time I noticed how Shiva was within me. Jabu chupke baita hum means when I am slowly, softly, sitting quietly, I felt Shiva's grace in my heart.

47:00 was within me. Om Namah Shivaya. And then Karacharana Kritaṁva Kaya Jamva Karma. It's a little mantra which we say after each meditation or after each worship. Because in the worship, we might have done some mistakes. So we are asking God for forgiveness. If I've done any mistakes for this, you know, this is my forgiveness. That's just a mantra. And after all of that my heart, there was only my Shiva. When the mind got frustrated and I lost my path, he was the one who showed me back, put me back into the path. Whatever we achieve here stays here when we pass, which we talked a little bit about that. But knowing Shiva, you achieve it all. Knowing Shiva, achieve it all. Means Shiva is consciousness. Consciousness is your Once you recognize that infinite reality within you, you have achieved everything, beyond the world, beyond all of this illusory thing that we used to believe, which the mind used to believe.

48:14 Shiva is the only truth, everything is only Maya, which Joseph so nicely put it.

48:30 — One Hour Meditation — Get Comfortable

48:30 else is only Maya. Om Namah Shivaya. So we'll play that bhajan and we'll go into the meditation. Thank you so much.

49:00 One hour. One hour. One hour.

49:07 So feel free to use the restroom and get comfortable for a one hour meditation.

49:30 — Bhajan — Om Namah Shivaya

49:30 O Namah Shivaya O Namah Shivaya Shiva his wasa, Shiva his kha Shiva me he vishara O Namah Shivaya

50:00 I am proud of my soul, but I am far away from myself. Every desire has been broken, but my heart is still empty.

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52:06 Oh, my God.

52:33 Oh

53:14 Oh

53:53 — Guided Meditation Begins (Grace Transmission)

53:53 sit comfortably

54:03 Take a deep breath, inhaling light, peace, love. And exhale, releasing and dropping everything that does not serve you.

54:22 Take a deep breath, inhaling light, peace, love. And exhale.

54:34 Dropping even further, letting go, dropping all your desires.

55:03 from yourself. One last time deep inhalation inhaling light peace love and exhale releasing and dropping and just being not being this or that not even

55:33 sitting in silence and observing the tranquility of the soul. Thank you.

[60 minutes of silent meditation]

1:57:20 — Coming Out of Meditation

1:57:20 Slowly come out.

1:57:53 Take a gentle breath, inhaling light, peace, love

1:58:04 dropping everything that came up to be released

1:58:12 inhale deeply inhaling light peace love and exhale

1:58:33 One last time. Inhale deeply. Inhaling light, peace, love. And exhale. Dropping everything that does not serve you. And just being even though we are coming out.

1:59:13 — Open Your Eyes When Ready

1:59:13 Slowly open your eyes when you are ready.

2:01:07 Thank you so much.

2:01:35 Thank you for being here.

2:01:40 — Clarification — The Gurus Have No Say in the Matter

2:01:40 Just one clarification. You know when Barbara was sharing about how she was not invited to the retreat, what happened is I was just trying to, it just came as a download that at that time I was just getting So just for you to understand the state of being of the Gurus, you pretty much have no idea.

2:02:12 We have no say in the matter. So I was getting no, no, no and I love everybody so much that I want everybody to come. All of a sudden in two days her energy feels shifted. The moment her energy feels shifted I got a yes. it's nothing to do with us and even the other one was telling he was trying to help to write a letter to somebody one of the sadhakas is adore this child you know but there's so much of compassion and love and every you know love for everybody because when this can happen to this one so you can also easily come This one is not so special or anything.

2:03:08 You can all come to this state, this irrevocable state of mastery in humility. Thank you so much for being here. I appreciate your presence. Thank you to all the Zoomers who came in. We'll meet you next time, next satsang. Thank you.

2:03:33 — Closing & Namaste — Jai Shankar

2:03:33 Jai Shank. Jai Shank.

2:03:41 So thank you for your presence here today.

2:03:48 — After the Grace Transmission — Be Gentle With Yourself

2:03:48 The energy of the grace transmission might be felt immediately or it might be felt over the next few days. So please be gentle with yourself. Rest if you feel the need to. water and eat plenty of fresh fruits and vegetables.

2:04:09 You may get a great burst of energy or you may feel a lack of energy. So if you feel a great burst of energy, please do not run a marathon or anything. That would not be helpful. And if we could maintain the silence in the space as we leave, that would be greatly appreciated.

2:04:29 So thank you again for coming.

2:04:37 And now I have ended the Zoom call so we can continue.