Press Delete on the False Self

Dublin, California + Zoom · August 22, 2026 · 2:07:42

00:00 — Opening Chant — Arunachala Shiva

0:00 Arunachala Shiva Arunachala Shiva Arunachala Shiva Arunachala Shiva Arunachala Arunachala Shiva

00:24 — Namaste & Welcome — Jai Shankar

0:25 Jai Shankar, Jai Shankar, welcome to Satsang. Thank you to all the Zoomers for being here. Thank you so much. So how are you all doing today?

0:40 So we talked several satsangs about... We want to go a little deeper today. Is that okay?

00:52 — Recap — Body, Mind, and the Pure Self

0:52 We talked about the last satsang or the satsang before, the three aspects of yourself. The body, I think Blake, you are not there. The body, the mind and the pure self. Okay. And so if you think you are the body, you know, the body is going to take you away.

1:11 If you think you are the mind, the mind is going to take you away and sabotage. We talked about all of that. So how are you doing? Have you practiced staying in the self and simply witnessing as the sakshi? Sakshi is the witnesser.

01:30 — Have You Practiced Staying as the Sakshi?

1:30 like witness means awareness, consciousness. Are you able to witness from that point of view your little life with the name and form? All the zoomers also. Because the abhyasa has to be done.

1:59 thing. You are the one, oneself. So you are the God is that with that which is within you is only your God, not up there in the sky. Sometimes I'll say Shambho, what's the matter? You know, it's a culturing thing. We think like the God is up there, but it's always down here, you know, right here. So unless you practice all of that, we can't go deeper and telling.

02:22 — Nirvana Shatakam — What Has to Be Dropped

2:22 So go into Nirvana Shatakam, which is the composition of Adi Shankaracharya, which we talked about a lot years we have introduced that script and mostly we talk about the one sentence which is so important chidananda rupam shivoham shivoham so today we want to just go and read it so that you kind of have a have an idea what has to be dropped everything that we think it's so important in our life that it has to be present our body is important i have to listen to my mind because the intellect you know it's telling me what to do it's helping me and all that you will see when the self everything is taken care of the intelligence is in the heart like Ramana

03:01 — The Intelligence of the Heart, Not the Intellect

3:04 Maharishi says we said this so many times on the heart is thy name Oh Lord finished one sentence right so humbly to say that when you go to that state of being simply everything is taken care of I'm not saying the body is going to be perfect I'm not saying the in the initial stages the mind won't come to Now, some of you who are taking the privates are coming and telling me, not telling mind is sabotaging, you're just telling this, this, this happened, Ma.

3:38 I was not feeling good, I couldn't meditate, or I meditated, I was blissed out then, I was very, you know, alone. You're never alone, okay? So, who is seeing that? So that awareness, not the personality, because if you look at it from the personality point of view, you're going to be perturbed all the time.

4:00 Because personality needs somebody to love that person. If it's she or he, I need a man. Or if it's he, she needs a woman. Why? I'm just cutting to the chase because this is the ultimate truth. You might as well get it now. If you want to be in the path.

4:16 I always say if because I'm not forcing anybody in the path because there are very few people who showed up today. And here we are making every effort to give you that knowledge. Krishna is here all the time with us. here setting up everything, going and bringing maha, you know, it's a lot of logistics

04:34 — Ribu Gita — You Are the Atman

4:34 now. So anyway, so when you go into the Nirvana Shatakam and scriptures like Ribu Gita, okay, it's just nothing but it says you are the Atman. Atman, Atman, Atman. Okay. But here for 11 years, we have told you all the prerequisites that needs to be done, So that you can come to the state of seeing and simply saying, oh yeah, this is like, you know, it comes to a point where this becomes very easy.

5:07 Because when are you going to reflect in your divine self instead of seeing all your lacks? See, all your lacks come from only the personality. I am this, name and form. You have not dropped the positionality, you have not dropped the name and form.

5:30 trauma drama will come and what Ramana Maharishi says is while this trauma drama is going on also please pay attention to your realization because

05:38 — The Parallel Path — Realization Amidst Samsara

5:38 it's like a parallel path you know when I first got married and I was very much with my Swamiji and everything and I this was and then you know my kids were born and after that I said I'm just really going deep you know I don't know what to do I reached out to him he said you know secret is parallel path which I've told earlier in the satsangs I have a parallel path this is Swamiji what that? This is the path of your, you know, wanting realization and your samsara. Because you already have kids and you have a family to take care of. You can't just ditch that. I said, oh really? Okay.

6:13 So, I mean, not that I was going to ditch because, you know, I was quite, you know, organized mom, I guess, name and form and whatever. So anyway, so that's very important because that thing stuck to me, you know. Then I would just go do my stuff, take care of the kids, blah, blah, and everything and then when they're all out of the house, cool, whatever, I just run up and sit in my shrine to meditate. So that's the parallel path. So you're doing both, right?

6:39 So when you're watching your mind go through and some of you are not married or not, you know, you have partnership problems, whatever, okay? But you have to start looking. Where is that I am not, why is that I am not fulfilled right now? And why is that I'm in

7:00 Okay? So you have to look at that and then, parallelly you are going to go into your sadhana, which is your meditation. That time where you are just with you and your God. And there is no duality there. That infinite reality within you, which we call God, we have to call something. So, it's God, you know, or grace.

7:21 And even the Avadvuta Gita, it says grace only. What it says is, that also says only Atman, Atman, Atman. These are all not fools giving the scriptures to us. We can be fools but they are not the great riches or not. They have been just like unbelievably done meditations. So, Avadavuta Gita says, I was reading this recently so it is very fresh in my memory.

7:49 So, what it says is, it says like the mind, we talk about the mind being purified, right? So, the Shuddha Buddhi. flicker of grace, flicker of thing comes in your, you know, in your feeling that, oh, I just want to break free. What am I doing here? You know, and that we call grace, that we call grace, you know, and so when that grace starts flowing, you have to pay attention. So what I'm saying is the grace is flowing. You're in the satsangs. This one is sitting and going blah, blah, blah for so many think okay i'm just going to throw in the towel and there is no i and next day i get up get ready and come to the satsang okay so you see that you have nothing once you kind of have surrendered there's nothing you're going to be able to do you have to simply follow what is flowing and it's so easy because there's no doer there's no everything so the mind is out because initially it's going to be difficult because you're going to say oh i've been doing this abhyasa okay the

08:57 — The Abhyasa of Positionalities Is Not Spiritual Practice

9:00 You are doing your practice. Your name and form positionality. I have to be this. I have to accomplish this. Whatever. So you are doing your positionalities.

9:08 And you are very happy doing it. And suddenly one day you are not happy. You are not fulfilled. See in the name. When you are in Advaita. And when you are in that irrevocable state.

9:20 There is not a day you are going to feel sad or sorry. You may feel perturbed. Your body may ache. Okay. You may say. Oh my God.

9:26 I need to take this ibuprofen. So whatever. sad. You see what I'm saying? You will be in simply joy. I mean whatever is presenting, nothing it is presenting. So what? Because from that point of view, from that sakshi or the awareness, you will see simply this is the fallacy of the world, planet Earth, body, mind. What are you going to do? See, at least from that point of view you must be able to see. See your falsities and your emotional, mind, ego, whatever, including the physical and we'll be clear when we are doing the transmission, emotional, mental, physical and spiritual incapacities.

10:15 So having said all that, are you able to dive deeper? Because we've been saying this, I can say this for another 10 years, not that this body is going to say, you know, somehow, boom, you have to come to that realization. At least you can say, Ma, okay, I got it.

10:30 Okay, I got it. I don't feel abandoned anymore. I don't feel lonely. I don't feel... At least that you come to that point. I'll be happy.

10:37 Then if this body leaves, it's okay. Anyway, I'm just being funny. You know what I mean? I mean like you have to take it a little bit serious. See, you can't...

10:46 — Ripening — The Cucumber Drops Without Announcement

10:46 Before you're fully cooked, before you evolve, when you come to that ripening stage, right? Om Travambhagam, cucumber. When it's ripe, it simply drops. You know, from the creeper.

10:57 Does it make any noise? to drop now, I'm being enlightened. No, it just simply falls. So just like that, your ripening will happen and you will simply drop into that state of being which is irrevocable. And once you get to that state, you just cannot come back to the Jagat. You are in the Jagat, you are interacting with everything, you are doing everything.

11:20 We saw Ramana, you know, with his thing, towel, dirty towel that was, because he wiped the He didn't care. So he comes into the kitchen and does all that. When you look at, actually one person came from abroad to see Bhagawan. And then you saw him there.

11:39 He comes and says, okay, where is the great sage?

11:42 — Ramana and the Visitor — Where Is the Great Sage?

11:42 And Bhagawan is sitting there with the longboard, right? With the loincloth. Oh, he's the sage? He's the sage, you know? It's like somebody was talking about ceremony last one of the privates, you know? And I was just giving him this example.

12:00 I just need a little chair. Actually, this chair is big. Okay, I accept. One little cushion for my back. That's it. But what is the big glorious about? You know, so one of the students who had come to the not to deviate, but this kind of interesting how the mind plays games on you. She's sitting there in the, she and her partner sitting there in the satsang. And then in the satsang, and I forgot to turn off my do not disturb, turn on. So it was

12:23 — The Pinging in Satsang — How the Mind Plays Games

12:23 pinging three times. Ping, ping, ping, ping. And I'm saying like, who's pinging? And then I turned it off. in front of me, in the satsang, and sending these things because she was with another teacher. And she's gone and decorated with these big two swans and this, I mean, hundreds of dollars worth of flower arrangements and all that. I mean, of course, there are a lot of people, 100 people, because you advertise. We advertise, we'll also get 1,000 people.

12:50 This is not for advertisement, you know. So she said, oh, ma, you know what, I was the one who decorated all this. And I said, oh, very good. She came to the Loveland No. He says, oh, I've sent you all the pictures. Why?

13:02 I don't need the pictures. You know, I'm not saying like all the gurus are okay and everything. But what I'm trying to present to you very humbly is that look at the truth. What is God? That which we call God, what's that?

13:15 Truth, love. Are you truthful every minute of the day? Are you really truthful? Are you really loving? Every moment are you loving? You're not giving up a million dollars by being loving.

13:30 have that unconditional love, will I be sitting here for four students? Tell me. What I'm saying is, since there's no expectation, there was six or eight who was supposed to come and only they showed up. It's fine. So, going back, it's like, you have to... So, this lady was saying, so she felt very proud of herself that she was doing this, but she did not really recognize that incapacity within her, saying that doesn't even, that sensitivity, saying And I'm telling about this other guru, you know, no sensitivity of sending all these pictures.

14:05 I'm just telling you what happens with the mind. The mind plays games like that. But she felt very proud. And I think I said, oh, that's beautiful. And it was beautiful. I mean, I'm also, I can also do frar arrangements, you know, simply and all that.

14:18 I was dying, did that and been there, all that. But coming to the point, life is beautiful, folks.

14:30 or something. I'm just telling you can integrate this world also but the basic foundation has to be the spirituality. Otherwise totally useless because you're simply going to get death knock on your door one day and you're going to be then what you're going to do? Finished. Your chance you've given up. Every time there is your chance, even Bhagavad Gita says that, or Rabu Gita says everything.

15:00 Now, the highest thing is human life, no? Not a dog or a cat or even though they're all very wonderful.

15:08 — Human Birth Is the Chance

15:08 Like a tiger has its instincts. It doesn't have that sixth sense that I'm going to be realized, you know. So basically, we have been given everything. We've been given the beautiful masters who have meditated for so long. Some of them stayed for 300-400 years and never received a pie in the forest all these precious gems. You know like Adi Shankaracharya was only 32 and he just disappeared and he's just left his Viveka Chudamani, you know which is like the crest jewel of discrimination.

15:41 Are you able to discriminate just the basics? Are you able to discriminate and discern like what is that I need to keep now? Why am I having so many toys? No, this I don't need, this I don't need, this I don't. Throw away! You know I'm physically like that, you know, go clean your clutter.

16:00 Because when you clean the clutter in your house, then the energy field changes. See, everything you have to... Let's say you wipe your nose and there's a Kleenex and you just put it there. Energy field changes even in that.

16:12 Anything crumpled, anything crushed. So everything, as soon as you finish, neatly you keep it. You're wiping in your towel, make sure the towel is back to normal. You know, simple things like that. Now, isn't this Abhyasa?

16:23 If you cannot even do this, practice it and do your meditation, how will you come to that irrevocable state? How will you come to drop this word? I'm going to be reading. Nirvana Shatakam. Chidananda Rupam Shivoham Shivoham.

16:36 So I told you already, Adi Shankaracharya, he's eight years old, he went to meet his guru. He also was looking for a guru in that lifetime.

16:42 — Adi Shankaracharya Meets His Guru — "Who Are You?"

16:43 Though he was already so advanced, but he didn't know he was advanced. He said, I want to go to my guru. He left his mother, who was a widow, in the village of Kerala and just left. She said, how can you leave me?

16:53 She was so attached to the son. She was worried about when she dies, who's going to do my last rites? He said, Shankara, you can't leave me and go. Who's going to do my last rites? You're my son. He said, Amma, I'll come back.

17:06 When you pass away, I will come back for your last rites. And he does come, you know. So anyway, so when he met his guru, this is what the guru asked him, who are you? First, the guru looked at him and said, Oh my God, this boy is so radiant, you know.

17:18 He could see that radiant, that Tejas, you know. So he asked him, who are you? So all that, he didn't say I'm Shankara. He didn't say I come from Kerala. This is what I'm telling, dropping the name and form. simply drop your name and form and see simply just for the heck of it then the positionalities which is connected with the name and form also will drop you see what I am saying then you will have a little bit of a you know I have a little space to meditate I am not this person wanting something I am not that person not from the past why are you holding on to the past all of the zoomers also privates to the past. Why? It's such a big botheration.

18:04 Bottom seven trails, we just live in the now. Easy peasy. Because what has happened is you have left the name and form everything and you're saying, okay, Sharanagati, to that God within me, I don't know who the God is,

18:17 — Faith and Trust Come First

18:17 Ma is telling, so I believe. So initially you have to have that faith, you have to have that trust. To go to the truth and love, you have to have the faith and trust somewhere. Others, what? We're going to blind, leading be simply going through life doing this or just feel very happy I did this I got this laurels I'm going to give a talk here and I've done this project and I got my PhD but are you really happy you got your PhD in what so this Chidananda the Rupa because this one and we're going to read it out because really to

19:00 up and down, you know. I am not the mind, intellect, ego or the storehouse

19:02 — Not the Storehouse of Memory — Everyone Is Evolving

19:06 of memory. See, it's so important because you're not the storehouse of memory, but what do we do? We always base our life from memory only. When I told somebody in my family that, why do you all have to talk about the past? He says, the past is based on, the memory is based on my present thing. I have to know these people, who they are. And the way he treated me before, that's who he is. I said no wrong because aren't you evolving you last minute yesterday you were one person last year you were a different person you're evolving everybody's you have to be so non-judgmental don't be judgmental of everybody and say like he's no good you know because last year he did that to me. Every moment people are evolving you're also trying to evolve.

19:51 So the memory I'm not the mind I'm not the intellect and ego which is all of you have to the ears and the tongue, nose, eyes, I am not ether, ether, earth, fire, all the five elements he is saying. Not the earth, fire, I am the nature of consciousness and bliss. I am the nature of consciousness and bliss.

20:14 I am Shiva, I am Shiva. Chidananda Rupam, Shivoham Shivoham. In the translation that I am aware of the language, Shiva Ananda Rupam. Rupam means the form.

20:30 I am Shiva. I am not what is known as the vital breath, nor the five life forces, neither the seven bodily constituents, nor the five sheets of the self. I am not the speech, hands, feet, nor the organs of generation and elimination. See, everything is negating.

21:00 Why I am... I don't know, it came to me so strongly from last night or something. I would talk about Nirvana Shatakam, you know, like everything is just flowing. So he says, I am Shiva, I am Shiva. I am neither hatred nor attachment, neither greed nor delusion. Neither hatred nor attachment.

21:16 — Neither Hatred Nor Attachment — Lovingly Unattached

21:17 How much we spoke about attachment? Lovingly unattached, you know, be lovingly unattached means you're loving everybody, that's the way they are, with no judgments, you're simply loving them some help. If you can be that one moment to help them, it's beautiful. Right? So, and the more you can be of help, how can you be of help to others? Because by purifying yourself, by being that Chidananda Rupam every moment, and you are able to simply flow. You are able to give.

21:51 Because your clarity is very steady. You are already very clear about what we are talking clear and you have started practicing that in your life at every moment at every moment every aspect of your life it has to practice very gently you know but always being aware so so I'm neither hatred nor attachment because in most of us are the cousin they don't have hatred but then there's also your vasanas right

22:29 — Vasanas Coming Up to Be Released

22:30 lot of stuff will be coming up to be released and sometimes you may feel a little agitation and and like irritation and hatred or something something in the form of hatred but more like irritation and you think like where is that coming from i was not irritated before so that's all coming up to be released so what do you do then sakshi you have to simply witness it from your awareness point of view saying do i need this okay something has come something action has been done

23:00 Why do you have to sit and try about it and write to Ma and say, Oh, I'm just feeling this delusion and emotional. I mean, I'm not making fun of you. I'm not judging. But sometimes you have to take the reins of the horses. You can't let the five horses go either way.

23:14 Bhagavad Gita, okay? Krishna says, like I'm holding, like you figure out that you have to go and fight it. Fight in a Bhagavad Gita.

23:30 So, somebody is in control of the horses, no?

23:33 — Krishna and the Five Horses

23:33 Horses have five senses. One wants to go here, the mind wants to go here, the body wants to do something else. Then who are you? Doing something? Nothing! You are achieving nothing! Okay?

23:43 So, when I say achieving, I am not trying to say you have to achieve something, but this... See, finally when we do the Ribbu Gita and all that, everything falls short, all of this. But, the reason this is all spoken, even Nirvana Sataka was among those four or five.

24:00 you have to come to that at least that state of recognition. So you can discriminate, you can discern. What am I trying to do? My mind is telling me we're going to go and do something there and you're simply looking at awareness and saying that's so stupid. Because if you are not aware of that realization then you'll be going and doing some silly thing, wasting a lot of money, wasting a lot of energy and then you're just sitting there. So I have neither hatred, neither pride Envy belongs to me.

24:31 Because you are not envious of somebody doing really great. Okay? It's a very common thing. I don't think in a sadhakas I found anybody like that.

24:38 — Neither Righteousness, Wealth, Desire — Nor Liberation

24:38 But I'm just telling you. I seek neither righteousness or wealth, neither desire or even liberation. Okay? So you put that in the shelf. Or even liberation, you put that a little bit.

24:50 Because when you come to that state, where even liberation is given, what is liberation really? You know? Freedom of where you can simply flow. Beingness.

25:02 Beingness as Shiva. You are simply flowing. You don't have name and form, you don't have a place, you don't have anything. So the desires when it's dropped, drop deeply, you know, because even if you're in the highest levels of consciousness, the so-called desires may come in a nice robe and, you know, and say like, you are such a wonderful person, you can be doing this, this beautiful thing.

25:30 You know, for that time when it happens, you have to catch, you have to catch that, you know, cunning mind that comes. I neither see, see, this is what our great gurus, you know, this is all like they have simply, in India they say, you know, simply, you know, like blended it and drunk it up. Okay, simply acclimatized it to the core, that they become that.

26:00 any desire, they are already liberated. So what is liberation to them? When you come to that point only you will understand what is liberation. I'll read another couple of things. I am of the nature of consciousness. Chidananda Rupam, Shivoham, Shivoham. I am neither merit nor sin, neither joy nor sorrow, neither mantra nor sacred pilgrimage, neither the Vedas nor the sacrifice.

26:30 a little touchy thing for some people because it comes to mantras and sacred pilgrimage. People are doing pilgrimage all their life and you know I'm a little naughty sometimes so I calibrate those people and then oh my gosh okay God bless them may they be well that's all I can do you know. So initially what I'm saying the Vedas we are talking about the Vedantic scriptures and their Adi Shankaracharya already was passed behind that stage. So it's okay for him. We are reading it so that you can, when you drop everything, you can actually see that effulgent light within

27:08 — You Are the Effulgent Light — It Is Not Outside

27:11 you. You are that brilliance. It's not coming from anywhere outside. You are that brilliance. That's what he's trying to teach everybody. That, you know, when you drop all of this, because, you know, people who do pujas and worships, they'll be very offended with this one. Because years back, couple who came from Australia and they just fell in it if they were going to another guru and my student was renting a place where they were renting and he says oh you have to come and see my mind is it who's mom so he's he brought them to the satsang and this lady was like you know she just was gone she saw my eyes I don't know what I was talking and then she was at the end of the thing and she was just completely gone and and then she's like kneeling and coming towards me she couldn't walk she couldn't even stand up she couldn't even do you know, like this, literally like, you know, scraping from the thing and coming to me.

28:06 Anyway, they became very close and everything. So she found another couple, Indian couple, who, she came across the Indian couple, actually in San Diego. She came, they came back to San Diego. I told them, no, you go back to Australia. You can come back and see me next year.

28:20 No, I want to be with you in San Diego for a few months. So they got the thing. They came there. It's just beautiful. And there they met, where they were renting a place, they met an Indian couple. I'm just telling you this example of how the world works.

28:33 They met an Indian couple. So the Indian couple, she told, oh, you know, like, do you know Sharadam? And they said, oh, we don't know. Then she said, oh, you must come for the satsang. And she was coming that day for the next day or something.

28:44 They said, oh, what does she teach? Does she teach the Bhagavad Gita? Does she teach the Upanish?

28:50 — The Couple Who Would Not Come — Thirty Lifetimes

28:50 Oh, she's like all in all. She gives the essence of everything. Oh, but she takes the scriptures? She says, no, it's not essential because it's not important because she's giving us the essentials. interested. You see what I'm saying? They will be there for 30 lifetimes, still not come home.

29:06 But here we're trying to give you the essence of all of this Vedantic truth. I'm not saying that I'm a scholar, but simply the grace has been that this one has, through Swamiji of course, with my guru and Ramana Maharishi, has simply understood the facets of this and the falsities of this reality that we think it's reality, this name, this form, everything. And the moment you You cannot go back.

29:33 See, just like this Ramana, okay? You may be an enlightened person. You'll be just like an honor doing things because you're not like saying I have to be, everybody has to accolade me, no? You're simply doing the silly things.

29:44 Oh, my is being silly today, you know? Grandma is being silly today, you know, yesterday when I met the kids. Not yesterday, a couple of days back. I am beyond all thought and distinction of formless nature and by virtue of being all-pervading, Through all the senses, I am not attachment nor liberation, nor the object of knowledge.

30:09 I am Shiva, I am Shiva. Here the other one, I missed one thing. But you see what I am saying? So that's why the great masters, they know all the knowledge. Because they are knowledge. They are that formless parabrahman.

30:23 — Beyond Thought and Distinction — I Am Shiva

30:24 But in the same form, they are running around. They don't need anything. They don't need you to come and say, you know you're so great you know it is simply a natural flow of their effervescence that they're giving us with such humility and love unconditional take it take it take it and we're like oh yeah maybe another day miss the boat maybe another day another day that guru is not going to walk in front of you who knows when this body is going to leave i mean i'm ready tomorrow now you know fear of death. Neither death nor fear nor distinction of birth or caste.

31:09 Here we are not so worried about caste because we are all westernized and everything but in India and everything they are always very perturbed by the caste and they put them down and all that. But what every scripture says, everybody is there's only one, there's no duality, Advaita. is mine. I have neither kingsman nor friend, neither guru nor disciple.

31:36 I am of the nature of consciousness. Siddhananda Rupam Shivoham Shivoham. So you got an idea of everything that you are not which we are simply keeping to ourselves.

31:48 And this is the highest form but I am saying before you come to that you have to negate and delete. You are good in computers, no? Delete. Press the delete button on all of this

31:59 — Press the Delete Button on the False Self

32:01 absolutely false notions you have about yourself and falsities. There are a lot of falsities. If you really go and start looking, and because one person, a dear one said, Oh, Ma, I didn't know I had so many ghosts in my closet, you know, so many skeletons in my closet.

32:16 And he was so radiant that day, way back in JCC, San Diego. And he was like really perturbed initially and then very relieved. When I said, Oh, good. He says, Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, it's good, right? good, you know, because you found your closet, now you, you know, your, you know, closet, the skeleton, the closet, you get them out. Oh, yeah, I have to get them out, right? Yeah. The moment you find them, they have to be, you know, you'll automatically get them out because the same thing, this is an analogy for all of those things that you're keeping in your mind, which is your falsity, because you're going away from your radiance and you think somebody outside of you

33:01 Nobody else can make you happy the way self can. The only joy is within you. You can find partners, you can be perturbed about their leaving or they're not doing what you want them to do. Again, same catch, right?

33:16 What you want them to do. You have an expectation, you have a desire of certain things has to be done and those people they have their own concepts. Okay, it's like they're the pool of consciousness, they're the whole karma of theirs.

33:30 — Your Bag of Karmas, Their Bag of Karmas

33:31 It's the same like you have your bag of karmas, they have their bag of karmas. And you're coming together and you want everything to be splendid. You did not bring me the red roses, it's Valentine's Day. It is so silly. I don't know, sorry.

33:49 It's just like, for me, it's actually very humbling to be in that space because it is so amazing and so expansive and so simple. for you to talk about. Most of the time when I go to get together or something, I'm just like... Because I have no interest in what is being spoken. Because it's all the same rigmarole of the world and whatever.

34:12 You know what I'm saying? So, why I'm telling you all this analogy is because when you come to that space, and also very important and when you're going through all of that, it's not going to be a piece of cake, no? You're going to have that irritation. You're going to... Because all that negativity is coming up to be released because you're doing a very important thing.

34:31 you are sitting there trying to get rid of all that is false within you. All that is false. Go look inside. You'll say, oh, I'm a very good person. There's no falsity in me. No, no. Go look. I'm telling you, there's such subtle falsities.

34:47 Oh, I want to be here somewhere. And I can, you know, because I can, you know, everybody likes me there and I can look pretty. Or everybody respects me and, you know, I can. I feel good about myself.

35:00 — Why Do You Feel Good in Someone Else's Company?

35:01 Check why you feel good about yourself in some other else's company. Why not within your own company, sitting alone at home? I feel amazing. I'm not looking at myself and saying I am amazing, but I just feel amazing. So I would rather be amazing sitting by myself alone in my nidras or something, rather than going...

35:20 You know, other than coming to satsang. Anyway, I hope you got it because... I hope you got it because I want to read the Ashtavakra Gita. I know that is said but this is like amazing and I took some screenshots and I hope I can get it.

35:50 So this King Janaka, he said like, see this is so beautiful. It says, with

35:56 — Ashtavakra Gita — The Tongs of Truth

35:57 the tongs of truth, tongs, T-O-N-G-S, truth, I have plucked the thorns of thinking from the innermost cave of my heart. Just how beautiful it is. So it is you yourself doing it. Remember I tell you, you're the policeman and you're the thief. If you don't take those thorns and you pull out those thorns, who's going to do it?

36:18 The guru is going to come and do it for you? No, because she's not aware of all your thorns, but she's just showing you the mirror that, oh, you have some thorns.

36:31 Who else is going to do it for you? That is Abhyasa, that is spiritual practice. Okay? Where is meditation, pleasure, prosperity or discrimination? Where is duality? Where even is unity? This is all like the ultimate, you know, but I don't know, it's coming that I have to share it. I abide in the glory of

36:49 — I Abide in the Glory of the Self

36:52 self. Ultimately it's only that. I abide in the glory of self. Nothing else is needed at that where is past and future or even present where is space or even eternity i abide in the glory of self where is self where is not self where is good and evil confusion i abide only in the self i mean i i don't know i just like just love this you know

37:31 you can come to this state. But prematurely if you do that you are going to suffer. It says here, where is activity or inactivity, where is liberation or bondage. I am timeless, indivisible, I am self alone.

37:47 Suppose immaturely you are not anywhere in that position, you have not done your abhyasana, you simply say that and sit at home. What's going to happen? You see what I am saying? So there is a subtle difference.

38:01 everything, you're fully cooked and you're sitting and you're simply naturally feeling that, then these scriptures are confirming, yes, you are in the right path, yes, you have, you know, because to that person, does liberation mean anything? What does it mean, liberation? What we are talking about? What does it mean? Because that person is already there, in that free space of flowing everything and everybody who comes in its path. Even though they are having like intense pain or something, you know, they give a hug to somebody. So you get my point?

38:40 You get my point?

38:48 So basically all of this says about non-duality. Okay? Oh yeah, this one is.

39:04 Yeah, this is beautiful. The liberated one, because when you come to the state of being, somebody was asking me, like, you know, this is like, I want to ask you something, and want to know where he is. I ain't telling you, okay?

39:17 — The Liberated One Acts Without Claiming to Act

39:18 The liberated one acts without claiming to be acting. But he is no fool. But he is no fool, okay? even though in the world. This is what I was talking about. You have to, when you come to the state, you will be simply interacting with the world. The world is not your problem.

39:39 The world is beautiful, no? God has created that, everything. And the funny thing is, everywhere you go, you'll only see beauty. You won't see suffering, you won't see irritation, oh this guy got on my nerves, that fellow did this. You won't see that at all. Having had enough of the endless workings of the he neither thinks nor knows nor hears nor sees see when ma is telling no I am nobody that I was telling I am nothing I know nothing and I was telling him useless and somebody got offended you know he is my own self what does it matter if he says something to me he says something to me oh she is my guru I should not talk to her like that I mean it is flowing right see that is the liberation okay You will come to a point where you have had enough of the mind, freaking telling you everything, like, oh no, no, like, you know, Gracie, you must not do that, you must do this, you know, all the time.

40:41 Aren't you tired of it? So one day when nothing is happening and nothing is being told to you, the effulgent reality is simply present. Saying nothing, doing nothing, knows nothing,

41:01 distraction, the great soul thinks nothing. Okay? Beyond stillness, beyond distraction, the great soul thinks nothing. Nothing of liberation or bondage. Because truly, today I don't know why everything is coming out, truly in that state, you're not thinking, oh, I'm liberated, or you're not thinking, oh, I have no bondage, and blah, blah, blah, blah, you know? See, this is just like confirming your state, you see? Having seen the world, Having seen the universe as void, even though it seems to exist, he is God.

41:36 You see? Having seen the universe as void, even though it exists, that one is God. That's the one we're talking about. Not God, Shiva is coming down to bless you and he said, you know, I bless you or something.

42:01 Why Ma tells you to drop your name and form? You are saying, yeah, she is telling me all that, but you know, I am in the world and I have to do all of

42:08 — Inner Renunciation

42:08 these things. I am telling you an inner renunciation. Internally, if you keep giving up that nonsense, externally also you will become the brilliant light. Till you do not give up the nonsense within, or you are going to become like so effelgent outside.

42:23 And when you become effelgent outside, you don't know about it.

42:26 — He Who Believes He Is a Person Is Constantly Acting

42:31 acting. This is so true. You believe you're a person, you have a name and form, you're constantly acting because you have to. Because you have to keep up all your falsities, you have to keep up all your, you know, the way you look and the way you act and the way you talk, you know. That's why the great ones, you know, they say something, what is he? He's supposed to be the great master and, you know, he or she is like, pardon me, fooling her down, you know, like saying So that is what is very important.

43:05 He who believes he is a person is constantly acting even when the body is at rest. The sage knows he is not a person and therefore does nothing even when the body is in action or in motion. Enough said, huh? My goodness.

43:28 — Q&A — Any Questions?

43:28 Any questions? Don't hesitate. Tesseray. Give it a...

43:44 Namaste. Namaste. Namaste. I'm thinking about discernment and that quote that you said about the tongs, plucking out the thorns of thought. Yeah.

44:01 from the heart. And wow, that really hit me. And I guess I'm thinking about discernment and I don't know if this is... Maybe I'm thinking and here's my answer. But is discernment a quality of mind or heart

44:17 — Discernment — A Quality of Mind, or of Heart?

44:20 or is it a quality of mind and service of heart? A quality of the purified mind called the Shuddha Buddhi. Remember I said in one sentence, purification, it will simply say, oh, I want liberation or freedom. That is grace flowing. But discernment is simply knowing that this is not right for me. You know, this is not what, like discrimination and discernment. That's what they say, Viveka, you know, Viveka is like discrimination. And so the discerning is knowing that, just to say, not this, nati nati, not this, not this, not this, not this, not this, not that. So discerning everything that does not serve you.

45:01 drop everything that does not serve you. So if it does not bring you to your highest best, then you have to drop it. Make sense? And that knowing, that's from a state of heart consciousness.

45:19 Don't think so deeply. Just be in the self. If you start thinking, where is it coming from? Is it coming from a big toe or a small toe? Then you get confused. Where is discernment coming from?

45:32 From the pure self, because all of these qualities are from the pure self period. The realm of the pure self and the realm of the mind, the realm of the mind will have all the ego positionalities, the sadness, the delusion, the abandonment, lust, sorrow, greed, everything. But that's the realm of the mind ego. The realm of the self is absolutely pure consciousness, joy, peace, serenity, tranquility, love, discernment, discrimination.

46:01 autopilot. So at that point you're not thinking, oh is it coming from my, you know, my stomach or my heart or my mind. You don't, it simply comes and that simply comes, the quality of discernment comes when you are meditating and you come to a certain levels of consciousness. You simply know, oh this is just, I'm not going there. Even though, you know, to the world it may seem very beautiful.

46:23 Well, they're only asking for your service and you don't want to do it, you know. You've been at that moment, suppose you want to sit and meditate. I'll give an example. You want to sit and meditate and somebody, a very, very, very close friend calls you, okay, and says like today, you know, remember we were going to get together and have a cup of coffee or meal or something together and you want to really, you are in this deep state and you want to meditate.

46:49 What do you do? You have to discern and say, I'm so sorry. I love you. I'm so sorry. Today, I'm just in, you don't have to tell her I'm in a deep state. Just say today, I'm just like in the want to move out of it. Is that okay? That is totally okay with me, for you to tell your folks or whatever. Because the falsity of life is that when you keep on doing something that you're doing and you're not getting any progress, spiritual progress out of it, then you have to look at the sakshi and say, wait a minute, I've been doing this for years and if I'm not still happy and if What am I doing now?

47:33 You know? And if you're filled with all of that, I won't disturb you. You know, like Ramana says, don't disturb anybody in the path. If you're coming and sitting here, of course I'll disturb you. I will start poking. Because what is the point?

47:46 What is the point in you wasting all your time in coming here? You know? You have to be poked so that you can be shown the light and so that you can become a better person. And so that, you know, and all of that, of course, everything negates. telling you this so that you can simply come and relish your own pure Self which is non-duality, which is your effulgent nature, which is that glory of the Self.

48:12 Nothing else. You do not need another person to make you happy. You are happiness, you are joy. Why does Shankara say chidananda rupam shivoham shivoham after

48:19 — Why Shankara Repeats Chidananda Rupam

48:22 every explanation? He doesn't explain even one moment who he is. No? Nirvana He doesn't explain. He says all of this, he negates. He says, I am Shiva. So when you come to the state of I am Shiva or consciousness, what else is that you need? That's my simple point.

48:42 What do you need after that, right? You need anything? Imagine yourself in that state.

48:54 If you're thirsty, you'll get up and drink some water.

49:01 Core state of being will say, I don't need... It won't even say, it just feels that it doesn't need anything. And it'll get up and get a bite to eat or something. And you don't sit there and worry, oh I have not eaten for two days. My body is going to evaporate. This one has done all kinds of crazy things. You know, because I just couldn't eat.

49:21 What am I supposed to do? I mean, I'm just like this blissed out state and then wow, this is so yummy, you know. Why do you want your blueberries at that time? I mean the thing is that this one is still sitting and doing this is because it's such an enchanted space.

49:38 And why would you want to miss it when God has brought you here to the satsang? Right? Because if I knew that you were all not going to make it, will I be here?

49:55 I'm so confident. I'm meaning not this personality. This one can come beyond all this stuff, my stories and all that. If I can come to see this, why can't you? Because somebody asked that day last time, I think, and I said, do you have a family?

50:14 She says, no. I said, then why are you not at satsang? You know what I mean? I'm just saying, with the family, with kids and everything also, if you're single and you're doing whatever, because you have a list of things.

50:31 it's okay, have all this stuff, have fun, whatever.

50:33 — What Is It You Really Want?

50:33 But at the core, what is that you really want, is my question. That burning question has to awaken within you, what do I really want? If you say, I'm happy with my life and I'm joyful and I go once in a while to satsang, whatever, yeah. But you know, the self will close the doors on you.

50:52 Satsangs comes only to that person who has a deep yearning for freedom. Tell me if I'm right or wrong. will the satsang come to Gracie's house? Impossible. Thank you. Thank you so much. We'll do the transmission and we'll just play a simple bhajan which explains itself.

51:23 Before I met your group while he's getting it ready, you know I talk only for 20 minutes maybe. to 20 minutes. Now we're going on one hour. See what I'm saying? Because the depth of making you understand this is what you need to do to come to that state. See what I'm saying? So just grab it, take it and run with it. What's the problem? What's the problem? All of your problems I negate.

51:50 Put it to one side. Flesh it down the toilet. After you flush it down the toilet, you'll feel

52:08 Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah,

52:28 — Bhajan — Arunachala Shiva

52:28 Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah, Ah

52:36 Arunachala Shiva

53:14 Akshayalinga, Atmalinga

53:18 — Bhajan — Tejo Maya Vigraha Linga

53:30 Ga, eha parasukh daayaka Esha, eha parasukh daayaka

54:15 Arunachalashiva

54:35 Ah, ah, ah, ah

55:02 Arunachala Shiva

55:20 Arunachala Shiva

55:44 Akshayalinga, Atmalinga

56:45 Arunachalashiva

57:04 — Guided Meditation Begins

57:04 Taking a deep breath. Taking a deep breath, inhaling light, peace, love. And exhale, dropping and letting go of everything that does not serve you.

57:31 Taking a deep breath, inhaling light, peace, love.

57:40 And exhale.

57:46 Exhaling and dropping everything.

58:02 One more last time, deep inhalation, inhaling light, peace, love.

58:11 — Grace Transmission

58:11 And exhale, dropping everything and just being on a little vacation for one hour.

58:31 or your checklist just being in that loving state of self

1:55:26 Take a gentle breath, inhaling light, peace, love.

[7 minutes of silent meditation]

1:55:27 — Coming Out — Inhaling Light, Peace, Love

1:55:33 and exhale

1:55:39 chopping everything that was released

1:55:48 taking a deep breath inhaling light peace love and exhale

1:56:10 One last time. Deep inhalation, inhaling light, peace, love. And exhale.

1:56:35 — Staying in the Altered State

1:56:35 being in that altered state even when we are coming out also remember that if you are aware of all that was released do not pick it back up when you go home

1:57:02 Slowly open your eyes when you are ready.

1:58:31 Thank you for being here. One little clarification.

1:58:36 — Clarification — Seeing the Energy of Consciousness

1:58:43 Because in this satsang, everything was being chopped, no? So some folks may not love it. So just to...

1:59:01 talking about the pujas and the worships. It's all beautiful because it's a culturing in India. We are cultured into that belief system that if you do this only you will get some grace. So it's okay in the beginning stages because we are trying to feel the energy of God or consciousness and we look at it to see whatever, form of Shiva or Jesus or whoever, right?

1:59:37 So that we get intimate with that form and then we go beyond form. So it's okay, there's nothing wrong in doing that, going to temples and all that. But later on, as you go deeper in the path, this one has done everything, went to temples, did the pujas, everything.

2:00:02 I couldn't come to that scene. Everything was dropped. Even now see I mentioned Shambhu, mentioned Arunachala. What is it that I'm mentioning? It's beyond the form. It's beyond everything. It's that formless Parabrahman now. The formless Parabrahman. But the Shastra says it's okay to call it grace because so that Anyway, by that time the ego is all gone, you know, mind and ego, there's nothing there.

2:00:38 So, hope we have not offended anybody who is in the worship, because lot of people in India also come, no? Mostly it's Indians who come for the satsangs and they do not return because, if suppose the same thing, if I sat and did a Vannar Puja, there will be 300 people. You know what I mean?

2:01:01 where they are and that's totally okay. We accept that but I'm telling only for the sadhakas. Slowly say for example you feel like on Friday you have to do this Lakshmi Puja so Lakshmi will shower all this grace on you. Challenge yourself and don't do the Lakshmi Puja but do your meditation three times a day and see what

2:01:31 aspect of your attachments has to be dropped.

2:01:34 — This Body Is Your Worship

2:01:34 Those who do not do the actual worship, this is your worship, you're worshipping the body, you're worshipping the attachments. You have to drop the attachments. That is your worship. All attachments has to go. Because what happens is when you're having attachments, I'm talking about like a person or a partner or a child or a sibling or a dog or a cat or whatever, then all of your energies are going into that aspect of your life.

2:02:10 Okay, so what is happening is you are losing that time with God, with your higher self.

2:02:19 — More Time for the Higher Self, More Benefit

2:02:19 The more time you give for your higher self, the more benefits. See, initially you may think, oh my God, I am living in this hut and I have no money and she is asking me to do this. you will be taken care of no matter what if you are if your intention is earnest and truthful how can that consciousness which takes care of every little lizard and the bird and cricket not going to take care of you because you are that very same effulgent being of consciousness that's what whom you are See, let go and see.

2:03:02 — Let Go and See — From Personal Experience

2:03:03 That's what I'm saying from personal experience. Let go and see. Because if you see for your comfort zone and for your financial stability or whatever that is, it's all part of the Jagat, you will not make it.

2:03:22 Literally, this one had to walk out of all of that.

2:03:31 it's doable because you'll say she's talking about all of this like how is that possible so I'm saying like yeah yeah this body you know what I mean and as you go deeper in the state it becomes actually very easy so when I'm talking about we're talking about all of this do this do this do your meditation and you think oh this is really tough and you're going to go through tough times because we are talked about everything is being released but ultimately when you come to spot, even beyond the irrevocable state, even if you come to understanding and practicing even half of what we are talking here, you will be in a state of peace, contentment, joy, simply tranquility, serenity for no reason. Then what happens?

2:04:21 You are conducting your life from that state of being, no? Then what is that, what is no good is going to come to you. All goodness only will come to you. you're operating from that state where you're not harming anybody thought, word or deed. You're not harming anybody. You're simply giving of yourself at every moment. Whatever the situation may be, you're not judging the situation. So every time you have to simply witness yourself and see. Say for example this one, right? And this is mundane comes my way and it tells me like can you do this.

2:05:06 So it's simply a flow, it's done. Suppose in some form I'm thinking like I'm this great guru or something, I fall short. Even doing the mundane things, no? You get my point? So you have to look at your own life and look at it that way.

2:05:23 Where is your positionality coming from? Where is your ceremonious being coming from? Let's chop. When that thing emerges and lets you know, because your awareness itself, every moment you will know. All the little kleshas that's been going on within you know, and you cannot drop. You see what I'm saying? So once you do that, only life begins. Life just

2:05:49 — Life Begins and Blooms

2:05:51 begins and blooms beautifully. But every moment you do not know it's going to bloom and you know I'm going to be... at any way that where I'm going to land up, I was somewhere in Timbuktu one time and when Phoenix and I came to I went to Boston I went you know all over the place and I'm just going yeah okay flow you know like that. Now everything is beautiful you know families are also together, service is also happening how

2:06:32 So what I'm saying is doable, it's doable, but you have to work hard a little bit in the beginning. You know, you have to have the Shraddha and the Bhakti and the trust. And once that is completely acclimatized within your being, then it becomes a state of flow. You cannot come back from that and say, you know, let me be naughty or let me do this or that.

2:07:01 Self will not allow you to do that because you know you're already steady you're connected with that effulgent reality which is only you and you'll stop looking on the outside for your little joy or happiness because you are joy but you look going outside to look for it who's going to fulfill you

2:07:19 — Closing — Who Will Fulfill You?

2:07:23 other than you fulfilling yourself see what I'm saying

2:07:32 We'll see you next time. Thank you. Jai Shankar. Namaste. Jai Shankar.

[4 minutes of silent meditation]